Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Could Things Get Much Worse?

I got a call from my mom this morning asking if I had heard about the ex.
I said no.
She said the surgeon called him yesterday to give him the report from his surgery.
The tumor was malignant.

Needless to say, my heart sank.

I was surprised and hurt that he didn't let me know. He text me about his surgery, so why wouldn't he let me know about this? After talking about it with T, I decided to call him.

He didn't answer. But he did text me right back and asked: "Whats up, I'm in Cabelas"
I told him my mom had called me, yada, yada, yada and asked him what was going on.
He said he may have to have his thyroid taken out.
I told him that I was just concerned and so I decided to call him. I also said he knows that if he needs anything to let me know.
He said ya, thanks.

And that was it.

I don't know what I was hoping for or expecting but I feel so helpless. What do you do when an unrequited love is faced with this? I want to be there for him but I know that's not what we are anymore.

T said he went over to their house yesterday and told them about it and he was definitely humbled by the whole situation. He said it makes you rethink some of the decisions you've made. I heard through the grapevine that his facebook status said: It's funny how a single phone call can change your life. T said she thinks/hopes it makes him realize who and what is really important in life.

I guess deep down, I want him to decide that I am an important part of his life, but I am by no means counting on it. It's hard when what you want and what you know will actually happen are 2 completely different things.

It's just all very hard to swallow.

1 comment:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear that & will add both you & him to my prayers! ...I don't see any problem you having called him & I'm sure it did mean a lot to him.

    I don't think there's anything else you really need to do - I have no doubt he will call or text if he needs help - nothing has stopped him before. :)

    Keep us updated! I hope besides that, you've been enjoying your break...

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