I've been in a funk for the last several weeks and I am more than ready to get out of it, but not quite sure how.
I took the 1 year 'anniversary' of the breakup way harder than I ever would have imagined. I guess I thought that I would be much further along by this point. Not to say that I'm in the same place as I was a year ago, it's just that I imagined myself being over him by now. I think a year sounds so pathetic to say that I do still love him...especially after the way I have been treated since the breakup.
I know I am not holding onto him in any way. I don't talk to him, I don't ask others about him, and I don't ever even look at his facebook. I'm not sitting at home waiting for him to call me or change his mind about being together. And, most importantly, I have prayed since day 1 that God would give me healing, peace, and help me to move on! In fact, I am so insanely busy that I hardly have a moment to myself (which is why my posts have been nonexistent).
I have come to the conclusion that there is a reason for my pathetic inability to get over him. Whether that means we are going to end up together sometime down the road or that God is just keeping me from dating someone that would be harmful to me, there has to be a reason.
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MISS YOU! ...first of all, thanks for the text when you were in St. Louis - oh the GOOD TIMES! Secondly, I still love The Ex despite being divorced & he will always hold a special place in my heart...difference is I'm not IN love with him. It does sound like you have stronger feelings for that still, though, but it is a POSiTiVE step that you haven't talked to him, asked about him, or checked out his Facebook page...keep that up! I wish I had an answer, too, but probably until you get into another relationship & realize that there are TONS of AMAZiNG guys out there that DESERVE the AMAZiNG YOU, those feelings may still be around. There is no set timeline unfortunately. Keep busy, have fun & it WiLL get better... :)
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