I'm Working On It

Last weekend I finally did it...again. I sent him a long letter explaining to him why I can't be friends with him right now, and asking him very nicely to please stop calling me (again). I told him that if he ever needed anything, I would be there for him, but I can't continue to talk to him on a weekly basis like we're best friends.

In my letter I said,
"I know you have been over me for a long time now, and so you may not understand why this is so hard for me or why I feel like I can’t talk to you for awhile, but I feel like I deserve the chance to get over you."

And so, I haven't heard from him this week and don't anticipate hearing from him for a quite some time. For awhile, I considered waiting until after Valentine's Day to send him the message, but then I decided I don't want to hear from him on V-Day, and besides, I'm tired of being stuck in this rut and I'm ready to move on. I also can't help but wonder what will happen on my birthday (April 1), but I'm hoping by that time, it won't even matter whether or not I hear from him.

And so I'm working on it...

It's nice to not have to worry/wonder whether or not he is going to call me today, or try to figure out why he does call me. It is nice to not have to spend my time trying to decode his mixed signals and messages, such as "What, you're not coming home this summer? Why not? Who am I going to hang out with?"

I don't know who you're going to hang out with, but it's not going to be me!

In other news:
The gorgeous guy that I am supposed to go on a blind date with has yet to call me after 4 weeks of having my number. Although, he did add me on facebook a week ago, which I guess is a huge step/good sign : )

We'll see what happens....it would be nice to be able to report on something other than the ex next time!

Oh, and the weather is gorgeous, which helps lift up my spirits!