I Am Not Strong

It has been way too long since my last update!
Too much has happened to tell, but I will try to hit the highlights and sum it up real quick!

The reason for my hiatus is life. This semester is even crazier than all of the others. It is my first semester in clinic and it consumes my life! Between school, clinic, and work, I put in 10-12 hour days, then come home to do hours of homework afterwards....ugh!

I texted the Ex about a week or 2 after our first discussion of his thyroid to find out if he had been to the doctor. He said he went the day before and would be having surgery the following week to take out his thyroid, just as precautionary. I asked him several questions about it, trying to get all the details and told him I would be praying for him. Then he mentioned he was surprised he hadn't run into me over break. I said I agreed too [although I did try to make an effort to avoid him]. Long story short, he invited me down later that night and I went. That was a Friday. I saw him Saturday night at the high school basketball game in our hometown. I was with my family and of course my little sister picked seats where we had to walk right past him. We made eye contact, smiled, and said 'hello.' Then he started texting me a bit, and that was it. I saw him Sunday morning at church [he told me Friday he would see me there], which was exciting because it was the first time he had been in a year. We shook hands, smiled, and said 'hello' during the greeting time. That was it...and then I left to come back to school.
Monday night I texted him to wish him good luck with his surgery [which was scheduled for 7:30 a.m. on Tuesday] and to remind him to let me know how it went as soon as he could. We texted back and forth quite a bit and promised to let me know when he made it through surgery.

The day of his surgery I was pretty nervous. It was about 11 o'clock and still hadn't heard anything so I texted his brother to find out if he had heard anything. He said his surgery was delayed and was just going in. I was in class from 12:30-6:30 that day and would check my phone between every class. 4 o'clock came around and I still hadn't heard anything, so I texted his sister-in-law and she said he had made it through fine. A little bit later, the Ex did text me to let me know everything was fine. I text him the next day to see how he was feeling [he was supposed to stay 2 nights in the hospital]. He was doing well enough that he got released later that day.

I went home that weekend so my dad could fix my car and he was home too. I went down to his house again. Since then, we've texted back and forth quite a bit. So much so that there's no reason for me to have him in my phone as: "Stronger Than This" because clearly, I'm not. I still don't want to have his name in there, because for some reason, his name has so much power to me, so I changed it to "The Ex."

In other boy news, B and I went to the movies together Thursday night. It was fun. He mentioned it was a date. He invited me to his super bowl party a couple weeks ago but I haven't heard anything more about it since then, so we'll see.